I remember the first time I tried to pop a wheelie; I lifted the bike just an inch or so off the ground, and my father shook his head.
My balance point is in the middle left region of my brain, which also happens to be aware of when I’m about to do something irrational. While not an acrobat, I am about as acrobatic as a flea on mild hallucinogenic painkillers. Thus, when I’ve had to think about anything I tend to fall flat on my face. I was a skilled faller. All kids cartwheel; but, when I was ten, I would fling myself from the roof of my school, roll into a front-flip, and all with only mild ankle sprains. Yet, much to my father’s dismay, I couldn’t wheelie on a bike—hell, I could hardly hop up onto a curb. But my father, who could drive; fly; and float anything, learned to wheelie on a dirt bike when he was just eight years old. Anyways, what follows is a listing of his advice:
- Don’t be afraid of falling.
- You will fall.
- You can’t do a half-wheelie (I tend to disagree as I have done a great many half-wheelies).
Thinking back on it, it’s strange that my father might have thought of me as being the kind of kid who was always afraid of falling. Maybe I was better at hiding my recklessness than I thought. I wonder about this as I look into the eyes of the ten year old I’m entrusted with. I know her intentions, I know when she’s up to no good, I know when she’s hiding something, but I doubt I have any idea what she’s thinking about when she stares out the window on those quiet long drives home.
It’s hard to imagine my father as a daredevil and myself as the conservative, and while this would be a gross oversimplification, I doubt I’ve ever had enough awareness to see myself for who I’ve even been at a given moment in time. Maybe he did though, and maybe I’m starting to now.
And I wonder about this as I’m no closer to doing a wheelie.